It's been a long time since I have posted due to problems I was having signing in to my blog. Hopefully that won't happen again as I don't want to start another one!

Now to catch up: I've gained 20 lbs, am sleeping too much, and am lonely. That about sums it up. I am looking forward to time with my family this coming week but I am worried about it, too. I have little to no energy and feel emotionally vacant. Hopefully being with them will help me out of my slump. The extra 20 lbs is miserable. I've been eating to stuff down my emotions which is never good. At least I know that's why I am doing it but I feel like I can't stop. I've even been wondering if I ever should have gotten divorced. Crazy. At my last appointment, I asked my counselor if he thought I would ever work again. He feels that if I can ever get over the agoraphobia I have, then I could definitely work. I told him I hope so as I cannot imagine living the rest of my life this way.  

Need to Vent

I had to go back to the doctor today. Now I have an upper respiratory infection (potential pneumonia was mentioned) and a urinary tract infection. I'm on an antibiotic that is supposed to cover both infections. It's one I've never taken which is scary since I am allergic to 4 different antibiotic groups. And two I became allergic to the first time I took them. I've had to board my dog which I can't really afford as I cannot care for her at least for a few days. I get short of breath quickly with any activity so walking her is not possible right now. I was so excited about finding the indoor pool and soon after, got my first bladder infection. I was sick last week but hoped to chalk it up to PMS so I put off going to the doctor until today. Now I wish I had gone last week and caught this thing earlier. It's all so frustrating and I don't understand what is causing this. I know stress compromises the immune system so maybe that is playing a part. I have a couple of stressors right now that I worry about constantly which doesn't help. I really need to do better about turning things over to the Lord.

Okay. That's it. Got it off my chest. Hopefully the antibiotic will kick in quickly and I will be better soon. Please please please please please.