Chins

I just saw myself in the camera on my phone. I now have three chins. Disgusting.

Angel

I am so frustrated with Angel. She has been in Hawaii almost a month and has done next to nothing to find a job. I hope she's not using her friends like she has used me. It's definitely not helping my mental state.

Heidi

I can't properly care for Heidi. it's not fair to her and makes me feel terrible.

The Bottom

No, not feeling sorry for myself. I'm sinking.

Caring

I barely spoke to anyone all week. Now I haven't spoken to anyone at allI in 2 days and no one has even checked on me.

Me

I'm not number one in anyone's life. it makes me very sad.

Why

Why does my anxiety and depression fluctuate so much? Yesterday was a good day and I got in a lot of swimming. Today I feel anxious and depressed and can hardly get out of bed. Taking more xanax than prescribed and have to be careful about not running out before June 10. This sucks. I just want to sleep my life away so that I can avoid the emotional pain and constant worry. I think I need more help than I am getting but I don't know what to do. Hopefully the Group my counselor is starting in June will help if I can make it to the sessions.