We will start with the good news. I am feeling better physically (yay) and am going to look at the indoor pool I found in North Charleston. Keeping my fingers crossed that it will meet my needs and not be too much of a drive.
The bad news is I am still struggling somewhat financially. I have accumulated some medical bills I am anxious to pay off, car insurance is due in a month and a couple of my monthly bills are increasing (electric and rent). Things will settle down in a few months but I am so stressed worrying about money issues.
The ugly news is I had a dream this morning about mom being sick and needing to be in the hospital. This dream also had a twist I had not experienced before. It threw me for a loop. When I awoke, I felt the kind of deep despair I had not experienced in quite some time. I haven't had a dream about mom in a while but with her birthday and the anniversary of her death coming up, I guess it's inevitable. I'm seeing my counselor Tuesday which is good. I am going to try to stay positive moving through this time and through the holidays. I was watching a First Lady episode on C-Span last Monday. It was on Grace Coolidge. She and her husband lost one of their sons when he was a teenager from a sudden illness. Of course both of them grieved deeply but per the author of a biography on Grace, when they would have family gatherings, while Calvin would focus on who wasn't there, she would focus on who was there. Quite different perspectives but hers seems to be the most healthy. I am going to try and make that my focus on time with family over the holidays-who IS there.
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