Someone suggested to me that writing out my negative thoughts about myself may be helpful so I'll give it a shot. Many of them aren't "negative thoughts" about myself but fears.

I'm ugly, fat, unlovable, no one cares, my life is over, I'm stupid, I'm a loser, I'll never be able to work again, no one will ever want a relationship with me again, I'm so deep in this hole I can't get out, I suck at being a mother, I'm tired of trying, people have forgotten about me and why not-who would want to be around me. There are more but I can't voice them all. Some I know are unfounded but my biggest fear is that some of them are true and that my life truly is over.  

I know getting well is something that I have to work on and that it's up to me to make changes. I just feel so lost.