Well, I made it to my counseling appointment. Dr. Silver was so happy with my swimming and weight loss. I did tell him that my mood had improved greatly but that it now seems to be getting down again. He encouraged me not to focus on my worries (when will my SS review happen? when will I be ready to get a job, financial struggles, the list seems to go on and on) but to focus on what I have accomplished. I just can't seem to shake this feeling of depression. I usually leave counseling sessions feeling more upbeat but that didn't happen today.

I'm going to try and go tour the Moncks Corner YMCA sometime this week as the pool is really starting to get too cold for me to swim in, especially with the rain today and temps dipping into the 60's at night. I may not be able to join until next month due to the cost but I at least want to go see the facility.

To be perfectly honest, I just feel the need for someone to take care of me, hug me for hours and help in cheer up in general. I am tired of this funk and I don't seem to be able to fix it.