Back I go (for today)

I just haven't felt like myself these past two days. I feel like I have taken a step backwards. I'm swimming as much as I can but I feel tired and worn out. I have had stomach problems and anxiety/depression has reared it's ugly head. I am doing more to stay busy (housework, errands, swimming twice a day) so I am perplexed as to why I am in a funk. Maybe the coming weather change and not being able to swim outdoors for much longer is playing a part. It will take a lot more effort to drive to the YMCA for my daily swims and I am worried about fizzling out. My mom's birthday and the anniversary of her death are also approaching in the next couple of months so that may be a factor. I've been listening nightly to a discussion on the book "My Own Worst Enemy" and I have to say it's leading to some soul searching. I need to order the book and start a personal study of it along with the stories of women in the bible that go along with it. I've been surprised about how this book it hitting me and I need to dig deeper. The chapter I listened to tonight dealt with re-creating yourself after loss (all kinds of losses-death, job, divorce, health to name a few). When I think of all the loss I've had in the past several years, it's hard to bear. I had to stop listening early I felt so overwhelmed.